I slammed my door & jump on my bed.
I pushed my face into the pillow & scream.
I grasp my phone tightly in one hand, knowing.
I look through my contacts as fast as I can, knowing.
I f ind your name & remembered the good times, knowing.
knowing that a month ago I could have called you & I could
have cried, could have ran to your house & let you hold me tightly.
knowing that a month ago you were mine, that you called me yours,
that you would do anything, like standing up for me, not tearing me down.
knowing that a month ago you were there for me, that you would listen to me
cry,& tell me eveything's okay, it was a lie but you could always make it mostly true.
knowing that you love her, & that she is calling you, & she's running to your house.
knowing that you're not mine, you're hers,& she loves you, just as much as I will always do.
knowing that you're gone forever, you want nothing to do with me, & I could just drop dead.
------>knowing you don't care
true story<3