I moved away to University
I met a boy
He lived in the flat next door
We had lots in common, same music/film tastes
We became good friends
We were both in relationships with other people
After a night out, at 3am sitting in the kitchen we had a heart to heart
We both admitted we weren't happy in our relationships
We stopped talking
We looked into each others eyes for what felt like an eternity
We both took a deep breath, and leaned in
Then froze. " I'd better go"
For 6 months we ignored the chemistry, got on with our lives
It was difficult.
I wanted more, but told myself he was happy with his girlfriend
I busied myself with my (unhappy) relationship to distract myself
My relationship ended, it was common knowledge his was in trouble
Then celebrating the end of First Year exams he drank too much
He told me everything i'd been wanting to hear all year
I protested it was alcohol talking, that he didn't mean any of it
He insisted it wasn't
He said he wanted to make sure everything was sorted out before anything happened
For us to have a fresh start
I didn't believe him.
I didn't want to be led on. I wanted him so badly
He said he was going to break up with her
I dismissed his claims, telling myself he would never seriously want someone like me
The next day through the window I saw him and her walk into his flat
She had a bag, presumably would be staying the weekend
Thats It. I thought. It was all lies.
It wasn't.
He told her everything, that he had feelings for someone else
Feelings for me
She didn't take it well. Broke into my flat, threatened me
Said it was my fault
I didn't want to break up a relationship
HE liked me... that wasn't my fault, was it?
I never let myself think he was actually serious
I felt so guilty
No one believed nothing had happened with us
It was hard to feel like I hadn't "stolen" him
Even though I knew their relationship would have ended whether I was involved or not
We then spent all our time together, 24/7
Getting to know each other
We spent all night talking, telling each other our secrets
Watching old black and white movies
Cooking fancy meals
Spending hours in silence just looking into each others eyes
Holding each other
It was perfect
Best friend and boyfriend rolled into one
We fell in love.
This was over a year ago now, and we're moving into a flat next month
He is without a doubt the love of my life.
I wanted to share this to let people know that sometimes love doesn't follow the traditional route.
It's not always a fairytale beginning, it doesn't always go to plan
But, that doesn't mean it won't turn out to be better than your wildest dreams
never give up.
sapphirediamond