my story goes like this;
my name is Emily, i'm 14 years young and i need to vent..
i'm in love.. with the boy who broke my heart <|3
i feel as if it's impossible to get over him, and i don't know what to do anymore.
his name is Brandon. he's 16. and he now has a thing with a 18 year old.
her name is Jessica, and she's beautiful.
so here's my story..
it was the 4th of July, 2010. and i was in the car driving for 2 hours to get home.
on my way home i checked facebook on my phone, and randomly Brandon liked my profile picture. it was random because we never talked before. he lived in a different town about 30 minutes away and we met at a fair about a month before this.
anyways, i decided to like his profile picture too.
and it basically started a liking war.
all day we liked each others pictures, and he even commented on mine saying "cutie"
eventually that night he told me to text him and he gave me his number!
so i texted him, and we wanted to meet up at the fireworks that night but it didn't work out so we planned to hangout at the movies 2 days later.
i didn't want to go alone, so i brought my best friend and her boyfriend.
we all got along great, but me and brandon were just a little shy with each other.
while we were in the movies {we saw grownups} his hand kept getting closer and closer to mine so finally i just grabbed his hand.
at the end when he had to leave, my best friend said as he got up.."you aren't going to hug him goodbye?!" and so he turned right around and i stood up so fast and BAM!
we kissed ;*
i've kissed other guys before, but this was something special.
i knew right then and there that he was the one..
sounds crazy right?
i'm only 14, i know.. and before him, i never believed that it was even possible to find "the one" till i go to college, but he's just different.. or atleast i thought he was.
well.. the night that we kissed was July 6th, 2010.
and he asked me out in person on July 28th, 2010. <3
we grew so close, and everything seemed so perfect in my eyes.
one day, i was with him and my best friend and we decided that we would go bridge jumping.
he had done it before, but me and my best friend hadn't.
i was planning on jumping with my best friend, but i couldn't do it.
i trust her, but i didn't believe that she would jump at the same time.
so brandon held my hand and counted to 3.
1...2...3... and we jumped.
i trusted ever since that day, i trusted him with my life, and my heart.
over the months, we made a lot of memories.. stuff that i could never forget.
but one day everything was different..
that day was March 27th, 2011.
2 weeks ago.
he sent me a text {that i still haven't deleted} which said..
"i feel like you're always going to be upset with me and nothing is going to change. I don't see the point of being together if you're just going to cry and be upset. I want whats best for you and thats why i think that we should probably take a break... i can't stand seeing you like i did yesterday...
i'm sorry i love you."
yeah.. he said "break" and guess what day this all happened on..
the day before it was supposed to be our 8 month!
...just 2 days later, i found out about Jessica.
They kissed the day after it was supposed to be our 8 month.
he doesn't even care. he has an older girl now.
she's 4 years older than me, i can promise you that she's way prettier than i could ever be, and she can drive, and she's going to college next year..
he doesn't even act like he cares about me at all..
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
i love him with all my heart..
there is no way she could ever love him more than i do.
and last night, i saw both of them.
they both work in the town that i live in, and they're across the street from each other.
so i was with some friends and so we walked in to where brandon works and bought a drink.
me and him were both starting at each other, and it was a little awkward, but i just wanted to cry..
then after we walked to the movies where jessica worked..
that was the first time i saw her in person, and she's gorgeous..
always smiling and she seems so nice /;
that night {last night} i deleted them both from facebook..
i don't really even know why..
and brandon texted me asking why i deleted him.
and i said idrk.
and he said alright idc
and i said yeah, i didn't think you would..
but then he requested me again. and i accepted.
i don't get it!
he said he didn't care, but he added me again..
I JUST WANT HIM BACK..
it's way to hard being "just friends" with someone who you love so much
and someone who you've gone through so much with.
i miss him.
i miss us.
i miss his smile, his eyes, his laugh, his touch, his kisses, his hugs, his comforting words, his family, his friends..
i miss our i love you wars, our tickle wars, our little fights that always ended with apologies, our singing, our nights of jealous, our movie nights..
i miss when we played with his guinea pigs, when he cheated at video games, when we went places together, when we acted so dumb around each other, when we told each other absolutely everything, when he protected me, when he promised he'd never hurt me, when he promised we'd be together forever, when we decided that we wanted to get married and have 3 kids and he would build our home and it was going to be beautiful, when we played with his little sister, when he threw me in the snow but helped me up, when we did eskimo kisses, when we went for walks in the dark, when he'd scare me but then hold me till i was better, when we texted every morning telling each other that we loved the other...
i miss everything
and i really need help..
PLEASE?!
PLEASE HELP ME!
- not my format.
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