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*My name is Nicole Chadd and i HATE people that judge!
*i love my friends and will do anything for them.
*I have the most amazing boyfriend.
*My quotes are just memories and unwritten stories.
~Im an ex cutter that still fights the cravings~

lovexisxblind
posted a quote
October 4, 2011 12:37am UTC

crazy1 86: hey baby!!!
h0tNsPiCy91: who is this???
...
crazy1 86: ur secret admirer!!!!!
h0tNsPiCy91: oh really.... quit lyin! who is this???
crazy1 86: i loved u the first time a stared in your eyes...
crazy1 86: i think about u everyday... you are my dream come true.
crazy1 86: we met once! i dont think u remember tho.
crazy1 86: i cut myself because the pain takes away my feelings of u.
crazy1 86: u will see me sometime tonight....
h0tNsPiCy91: ..WHO IS THIS!?!?!?
crazy1 86:dont worry.... ill take very good care of you...
crazy1 86 had signed off.
The girl was so scared she locked all her doors and windows. She made sure her room was secured. She wasn't sure if it was a joke or for real. She didn't know when he was going to come. The girl was so frightened she decided to sleep with her little sister. The girl dozed off quickly.
Then she heard a knock on the window. The girl slowly walked to the window. It started knocking louder. The girl looked through the windows and saw nothing... just some of the tree branches. The girl went back to bed with her sister. The bed was wet and had a pretty horrid smell. Maybe her sister wet the bed... the girl checked and found blood everywhere. The girl panicked. She didn't know what to do. She ran and hid in the closet in case the killer was there for her. While looking through the cracks of the closet the girl saw a shadow. It was dark, so she couldn't figure out who it was. She started to get more frightened. The shadow crept closer to the closet. The girl closed her eyes as if it was a dream. Then suddenly he opened the closet door and pulled her out.
Her parents found her dead the next morning. She was completely skinned and hanging in her sister's closet. The younger sister was also found skinned and dead.Two years after the Smith sisters deaths, the parents had a baby boy. The girl's room became a guest room and the little sister's room where the murder took place became the baby's room. The baby grew up to be a successful kid.
One night he was on the computer and received an instant messege.
h0tNsPiCy91: Hey lil bro!!!
2seXay4u: Who is this?
h0tNsPiCy91: It's your big sis.
2seXay4u: I never had a sister. I'm an only child.
2seXay4u: This is some kinda joke, huh?
h0tNsPiCy91: Mom and dad never told you?
h0tNsPiCy91: I died 15 years ago with your other older sister.
h0tNsPiCy91: We were murdered in your room which was once my little sister's room. She was killed in bed when I was sleeping. I was killed in the closet and skinned to death.
2seXay4u: Quit lying. I never had a sister. If I did my parents would have told me. Whatever. Your stupid.
h0tNsPiCy91: You don't believe me? Well if you wanna look in your closet floor.
h0tNsPiCy91: I carved my name and the time and date I was being murdered. Then I carved my little sister's name.
h0tNsPiCy91: If you don't believe me little brother check the internet. Google on ''Smith sisters murdered anonymously''.
h0tNsPiCy91: I gtg little brother. I love you and mom and dad soo much. I can't believe they kept us a secret from you. They should burn in hell.
The boy checked the closet. He saw the carvings. Was it true? He surfed the internet and information was there about the anonymous murder in the house. The next morning the boy went downstairs. It was so quiet. Maybe his parents were sleeping. Hours later the boy found his parents in their closet skinned and hung. Then he found more carvings on the ground. They said ''I TOLD YOU I WASN'T LYING LITTLE BROTHER, I LOVED MOM AND DAD.... BUT THEY KEPT ME A SECRET. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. WELL I'M FREE FROM THIS COLD WORLD, I WON'T HURT YOU LIKE I HURT THEM. I LOVE YOU!"
- LISA SMITH
This is a death chain letter. If you don't repost this in the next hour, the parents will kill you at night. They will kill you!

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lovexisxblind
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October 4, 2011 12:31am UTC

As i lay here in the dark i start to think about everything i've been through. At this moment i start to get this old feeling that i felt everyday. I just cant put my finger on what it is. Than it hits me, its a craving. That thing i used to look forward to everyday. That thing that gave me permission to cut myself again. It let me bring my blade to my wrist.
That feeling? Yeah, that feeling came back. But what did i do? No i didnt do what you thought i did. To be honest, it took everything i had to hold myself back from cutting myself. From going back to my past and doing the one thing that ruined my life. But on the other hand it was the one thing that i enjoyed and the one thing that i looked forward to everyday for a year.
I still miss it. And i still miss it everyday. Even though i've been "Clean" for about eight months. Rediculous ik. But unless you've been through this you just won't fully understand what i went through and still go through.

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lovexisxblind
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May 25, 2011 11:07pm UTC

I run to the bathroom crying as hard as i can. I slam the door than i lock it. While i search for my blade i cant seem to find and emotion. I slam by body against the wall and slowly slide down the wall while i squeeze my blade. I push my sleeve up and stare at my scared up wrist ready to put another cut there. I press the blade deep into my skin, close my eyes, and slide it slowly down from my wrist. I finally drop my blade and squeeze my cuts while i lay there..numb as can ever be.
mine.

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lovexisxblind
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May 25, 2011 10:56pm UTC

There she lays, in her bed crying because shes in so much pain. All she wants to do is cut, but she cant. She promised so many people she wouldnt do it again. But why does it matter what she does with her life? Why does it matter what she does to her arm? The tears get heavier, her breathing gets faster while she lays there in a tight ball trying to protect herself. She starts rocking herself back and forth attempting to calm herself down, but it doesnt work. Now she starts to talk to herself. Whats drivin this girl so far? Why does she look so messed up. Why does she sound so messed up.......? Its because she is.
mine.

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
August 14, 2010 7:50pm UTC

as the blade slides down her wrist the blood flows freely out of her open wound and she screams for help but no one can here her silent screams, so she cuts deeper because she feels like no one cares..
mine

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
August 14, 2010 7:45pm UTC

the only thing that has hurt me on the inside..
has only left scars on the outside.
but that is only because i put them there
mine...

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lovexisxblind
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March 31, 2010 11:32am UTC

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 31, 2010 11:23am UTC

People say it can become a habit; but i dont care. Its something i enjoy and love.
mine; sorry :/

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 31, 2010 11:22am UTC

Cutting is a big part of my life, and it always will be.
mine :/

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 31, 2010 11:21am UTC

Got a little red line that tells you, boy, where the razors been.
not mine

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 31, 2010 11:20am UTC

I dont know why i did it, i dont know why i enjoyed it, and i dont know why ill do it again.
not mine

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 31, 2010 11:18am UTC

I hurt myself today, to see if i still feel.
o focus on the pain, the only thing thats real.
The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away, but i remember everything.
not mine

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 26, 2010 10:20am UTC

There the best things that have ever happend to me.
FRIENDS!
There here for me, through the hardest times of my life.
They dont judge me, they try to understand and thats why i love them.
They give me the best memories i have and ill always have plenty more.
People ask why i act "immature" around certain people, well there my best friends...why wouldnt i?
Immaturity with your friends is just happiness.
Some people should try it! (:
:) mine

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lovexisxblind
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March 26, 2010 10:04am UTC

Do you ever lay in bed, cracing that knife to your scared up skin?
Once again i do, i find my self in the bathroom with the door closed.
Watching the red blood, dripping into the white sink..slowly sliding down to the drain.
There i stare at my wrist, feeling better than before.
I blink, and there i look and realize i broke the promise ive made to multiple people.
mine :// dont judge please

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 10, 2010 8:42am UTC

Life isnt the same when one of your friends randomly pulls away.
Life isnt worth living anymore.
You dont know how much someone means to you till there attempting to leave.
But i know this friend is worth the fight..were almost alike..
me and her.
Im completely honest with you hun! i swear on my life.
mine :/ venting..kinda not really.

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 9, 2010 1:59pm UTC

CRY
CUT
CUT
CUT
BLEED
BREATH
CRY
CUT
CUT
CUT
BLEED
BREATH
CRY
CUT
CUT
CUT
BLEED
BREATH
RELIEF
all mine ://

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 9, 2010 1:57pm UTC

As i guide my sharp knife across my skin i scream out in pain..
I think to myself...this world is so hard, why, who cares just cut.

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 9, 2010 1:52pm UTC

Running those needles or that knife across my wrists relieves so much pain.
People that dont cut wont understand the satisfaction that you get from it.
all mine :/

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lovexisxblind
posted a quote
March 9, 2010 1:41pm UTC

Have you ever held a knife to your wrists ready to cut, ready to make the pain go away and somone walks in?
That happend to me lastnight, my brother walked in and caught me holding that knife to my wrists.
He ran over and grabbed it out of my hand and said what the hell.
I broke down right then and there, i needed that knife more than anything.
He just stood there in shock, he walked me back into work and i sat down.
I could walk anymore.
So he went and got one of my best friends cuz she was there.
And she looked at me in dissapointment, but she told me to stand up so i did. Afraid of what she was going to do..
She hugged me though, she squeezed me, letting me know shes never letting go.
I was shaking so much, i was so scared. But she said everything will be okay.
Never again do i wish that someone sees me cutting or attempting to.
all mine ://

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lovexisxblind
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March 9, 2010 9:42am UTC

Im sorry! i dont mean to hurt you, you mean to much to me.
Im sorry for putting you in the middle of everything.
Im sorry for bringing all this hurt upon you.
Im sorry that...im just sorry babe.
Im a horrible friend.
i see that.
If i wasnt than i wouldnt bring all this hurt to you.
i love you.
all mine.

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