dear my never,
i guess the real reason why i'm so angry
is the fact that i know you never loved me.
not truly. i knew that our end was inevitable.
but i let myself fall for you anyway. listened
to all the words that would set me up for
failure.. all because i thought that i'd be the
girl that changed you. the girl that made the
player quit the game. don't get me wrong,
you were never a player.. but you sure did
play me.. and i loved you.. knowing the
whole time that you didn't love me. i knew
it and when you told me i wasn't shocked,
since i already knew the words had been
coming for a long time.. but more than
anything, i was relieved. I didn't have to
pretend to be your number one girl anymore,
considerring, i never was in the first place.
it's hard to leave someone who meant
to much, but it's easier knowing that i
was never what you wanted in the first
place. and yes, i may have loved you.
and yes, i may have given you things i
can never take back.. but at least, i know
that it was you who lost the girl, and all
i lost was someone who comes a dime
a dozen.
signed,
forever yours.