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I have to do something with my profile, I know it doesn't look good, but I barely ever am on anymore. ):

Hi, My name is Kenzie.
14, 15 on March 17th.
Music is my religion.
Rap, R&B, Country, Pop, HipHop, Alternative,
Rock&Roll, Rock, Techno, EVERYTHING.
...But screamo.
Caring;Tall;Basketball;Nice;Funny.
I make jokes alot,
but also have a serious side.
Better listener than a talker,
So whenever you need someone to talk to..
I'm always here. :)

why did you leave me to cry in the cold
you swore this time was different
why does that line seem so old

You told me I was the only one
who could make you feel that way
you told me that you cared about me
so why didnt you stay

All the nights you laid with me
alone in the dark in my bed
now I finally realize
you were just messing with my head

Love is such a powerful word
a word people often misuse
something they take for granted
something they beat and abuse

My wounds run deep inside me
there's blood all over the place
I think I've really lost it this time
Im ashamed to show my face

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August 15, 2011 10:34pm UTC

F O R G I V E But Never Forget.Chapter One
Loud knocking echoes from the black metal door and into my plain white room. Rolling over and pulling my pillow over my head, I moan and groan annoyed. A sweet, polite, yet fake, voice shouts from behind the door, "Crystal! Breakfast is ready! Get out of bed sleepy head!" There's silence for a moment before the woman's voice roars again, "Crystal! I'm not going to tell you again, breakfast, now." I pull my pillow from my face and throw it at the door as hard as I can, obviously frustrated. "Okay I'll be there in a minute." I spit back at her. I flutter my eyes open, squinting them, trying to adjust them to the morning light. It's my 28th day here in this psychiatric hospital. Or as everyone else would like to call it, the mental institution. Only two more days until I'll be let free. Though every long day I spend here, most of my time I always wonder, who will be there to pick me up when I'm let go? Who will care enough to come and see me when I've been gone for a month?
Does everyone still remember me as the girl who attempted suicide? Or the girl who hid in everyone's shadows, who also held a million secrets? I'll hope for choice number two, but it's an obvious fact that I'll always be rememberd as the weird girl who tried killing herself. The only person I can actually count on to be here in 2 days, my father. The only one that understands.

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August 5, 2011 3:58pm UTC

& I ' m T h a t W e i r d G i r l N o O n e L i k e s C h a p t e r F O U R I watch his eyes as I walk silently to the empty chair.Sliding down in it as quiet as I can, not looking away. Something about his eyes, they're so mesmerizing.Chills strike through my body, making me shiver. It's like the color and perfectness of them made the temperature change from warm and stuffy, to freezing and uncomfortable. I find my eyes starting to burn from lack of blinking. He hasn't moved an eye lid yet either. But as the next few names are called out, he flutters his eyelashes and faces the front of the room. I blink repeatidly, confused, trying to figure out what just happened to me. Mr. Evans gave us an assignment and we're completing it now. I glance down at the boy's paper, realizing I don't even know his name. At the top it reads in perfect cursive, Jeffery Young. His pen stops writing. His hand lays across his paper in a fist, clenching his pen. He knows I'm watching so I quickly turn back to mine and continue writing. The image of him sticks in my head the rest of the class. His black fluffy hair that gently hangs from his head. His soft looking lips that never move, not ever sprout into a smile. I look up from my paper and stare at the clock above the door. The room is filled with the sound of pencils writing, earsing, and tapping. 10,9,8,7,6,5,4 seconds left. I pack my stuff up and bring my books to my chest, ready to hurry out of the classroom. Just as it's about to ring, the chair next to me slams backward, making an unpleasnt noise. Jeffery is already standing, walking, as the bell rings. The rest of the classes follows his lead, packing up and rushing to flood the halls. I'm the last one to leave as I walk slowly to the door.The rest of the school day confuses me. Each class I think about Jeffery and why he seems so mysterious. .. And that's when I remember what I promised myself before..No making friends.
---------------♥--------------- Y O U L I K E ? Y E S N O ? sorry this chapter was a long one !

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August 3, 2011 1:21pm UTC

& I ' m T h a t W e i r d G i r l N o O n e L i k e s C h a p t e r T h r e e After a long speech from the coffee soaked white shirt teacher, I hurry to my first class, Biology.Everyone is standing at the front of the classroom, holding their books. I open the door as silently as I can, but unfortunetly, everyone heard.Now all eyes on me as I stand awkwardly in the doorway.A loud male voice breaks the silence.A guy, about 6 foot, steps out from the group of people, wearing glasses and holding a clipboard."Hi, you must be Mackenzie Davis. I'm the science teacher, Mr. Evans. I'm assigning lab partners, so please, join the crowd." I give him a weak smile and shuffle toward the kids who don't take their eyes off me.I ignore the starring and look around the room.Names are called while I start to think about the boy from earlier.The image of his green eyes starring into mine stays in my mind."Mackenzie Davis?"I shake the thoughts away and step carefully through the people.As I come into view of the the tables, Mr. Evans is pointing to an empty chair.An empty chair next to a boy.A boy with piercing green eyes.
---------------♥---------------D O Y O U L I K E I T ?F A V I F Y O U ' R E R E A D I N G ?

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August 1, 2011 5:11pm UTC

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July 31, 2011 6:58pm UTC

& I ' m T h a t W e i r d G i r l N o O n e L i k e s C h a p t e r O n e Hi. I'm Mackenzie Davis.13 years old, and not even close to being under the description 'normal.' Girls my age are usually born and raised in one state with one family.Me? This is my 8th move.I've had 8 fathers in my lifetime.But only one means something to me.Every day I wonder where he went and why he left.He broke my mother's heart and messed up my life.I'd forgive him though, but I don't think I'll ever be able to.He'll never come back, my mom reassures me all the time.She says we don't need him.But I disagree.She says we're better off without him.But we're really not.She says we're a family, me and her, not him.But the both of us are never happy.She says she hates him.But I catch her crying every night looking at a picture of them on their wedding day.More boyfriends then I can count on 2 hands, & more ex husbands then I can count on one.My mom excepts me to understand.But I don't.Who knows if I ever will.I've learned to accept the fact, shut my mouth, pack up, and leave.I've made a decision in my life too, no more making friends.I've come to a conclusion that I'll always have to say goodbye and start new.I've also made up my mind about school itself.No more trying.Failing tests and not doing homework is what I'll do.What's the point in trying when you have to leave, start fresh, and forget the past anyway?These 2 choices I made don't help the fact that I'm always sad.I walk through the hallways alone, while kids point and laugh, talking behind my back.I'm used to it though.Because to everyone else, I'm just that weird girl no one likes.
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July 31, 2011 1:55am UTC

AWW HEELLLL NAW.HOLD MY EARRINGS!♥

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July 19, 2011 9:04pm UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 2 4 .During each class, I'd atleast glance at Jake once.Each time, he'd already be starring.I smile a little, closed mouth smile each time, but he'd look away.Jake is hurt.And it's all my fault.Lunch comes and to avoid the awkwardness of even talking to him,I eat my free lunch in the bathroom stall.I eat in pain, wanting to hide away forever.I don't know what to say or how to even talk to Jake.Or Erica, or Eric, or Max.I've never had to say goodbye before..Before I could even come up with anything,there's a knock at the door.It's silent, but loud enough to hear."...Sarah? Are you in there?.." I stop chewing and focus, trying to figure out whose voice it is.I slowly, soundlessly, throw the rest of my food away, stand up, and walk to the door.I listen one last time before I carefully grab hold of the knob.Inching the door open, nervous to whose there.My nerves soar away as I see a girl, standing with a big smile across her face."ANNA!?"

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July 18, 2011 8:11pm UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 2 3 .Avoiding eye contact and rubbing his neck awkwardly he studders,"Uh, Sarah! Uh, you look-"From behind Jake, Eric comes to view."Beautiful." He steals the words from Jake's mouth.Eric wraps me in a hug and asks if I feel better."Uhh, yea, could be better ha" I smile weakly.Jake shifts his view around the hallways, not looking at me."Ha, um well then, I should be getting to class." With that, Jake turns around slowly and fades into the crowd of people.Eric brings his thumb under my chin.Which immediatly sends chills through my body and butterlfies to my stomach.He leans in slowly, making me more nervous.Whispering, the words come from his throat softly."Just tell me when to stop.."He closes his eyes and leans closer. I start to think of Jake and open my eyes."Stop."Opening his eyes, Eric releases my chin."..Sorry."I start to feel a bit nautious and guilty."Don't be sorry. Look, um, I gotta get to class. I'll see ya round."I don't know if I should hug him or even shake his hand.I look at him for a second then bring my books to my chest, close my locker, and walk away.Leaving Eric alone, confused.Maybe today won't be so great.

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July 17, 2011 3:13am UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 2 2 .I walk to my locker, with confidence.I wave to random people I've never noticed. Smiles are returned after my lead, but everyone is so confused.It's like they don't know me.A really cute boy passes me, I smile at him and he does the same, starring into my eyes.We keep walking in different directions but starring at eachother.While watching the cute boy, I crash into someone.Sending books and papers everywhere."Woah, watch it dick he-" I stop myself, remembering I'm going to be nice."Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry." I say, bending down to help pick up the fallen papers.I stand up and hand them over to its owner.It's a small, very tiny, nerdy kid."Thanks" He says awkwardly, probably hurrying to class."No problem" I say as politley as I possibly can.He gives a half smiles and rushes past me.I continue to my locker.From a distance I could already see Jake waiting for me.As I get closer I notice his facial expression.He stares at me, but it's a different stare.He's speechless, I love it.

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July 17, 2011 2:46am UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 2 1 .Our conversation doesn't last that long.I don't have the courage to tell him about moving.I just can't.I tell him every detail about when I was with Mike.He cared, he cared alot.I'm going to miss Jake.Miss him alot. Waking up is a pain.Showering with a cast is a pain too.Today is my last day of school in Utah.I decided to do something I never would have thought of doing.Ever.I'm going to be nice.I'm going to try today, I'll be pretty today.Not hot. Or sexy.I want to make girls so jealous they'll compliment me.Or boys eyes widen, not jaws drop.I want compliments.I want to be different for atleast one day.I curl my long blonde hair, pining back my bangs.I do my makeup, but drop the dark eyeshadow.I put on a light code of eyeliner then some sparkles on my eyelids.Clear lipgloss to make my lips appear shiny, then I pluck my eyebrows.I dig through my hanging clothes trying to find sometihng pretty.Way in the back I spot it.A beautiful, a little above the knees length, white dress.It's one of those summer dresses, not too formal and not too casual.It has pink, navy blue, white, and teal flowery print.I slip on plain white flipflops.When I get down stairs my mom stares at me, smiling.She looks like she's about to cry or something."Oh honey.. you're so beautiful."I'm going to be nice today."Thank you mom, I get my looks from the one and only!"She blushes and holds her arms out.I squeeze against her body, hugging her tight.Whispering into her arm, "I love you mom."She releases me and a tear appears in her eye.Smiling widely she says she loves me too.I kiss Adam on the forehead and start to leave."Wait! Sawah!"He runs down my driveway and jumps into my arms for a hug."You wook wike a princess. You is twuley bootiful."My body fills with sunshine and happiness.Today is going to be a good day, I know it.

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July 16, 2011 4:48pm UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 2 0 .The rest of the day goes by pretty fast because I sleep more than half the time.Today I get to leave. Today I also have to say goodbye. My mom picks me up and we leave with my neon yellow cast and crutches."Honey, you know you have one more day left of school.."I remember all the drama that happened before.I can't have that humiliation, I just need to leave."Mom, no, I don't want to go. I can't.""Sorry.. I told your principal you're coming then shes shifting all your school information to California tomorrow night."I know there isn't getting out of this one so I save the trouble and accept the fact. Once I get home, Adam greets me with a big hug."Sawah, Jake is weally nice. He said to fink of him as my broder!"I can't help but smile.I start to change all my thoughts to Jake.Day dreaming about his multicolored eyes and soft brown hair.His big strong arms when he squeezes me into a bear hug.Then uncontrollably I start thinking of Eric.His light grey, mesmerizing eyes.His ability to knock someone out in one punch.The way he is so protective. Why am I even wasting my time thinking, I can no longer love either of them.Long distant relationships don't work.*Knock Knock Knock*"Phone is for you Sarah."I hop over to my door and take the phone from my mom's hands.She leaves down the hall to continue packing."Hello?""Hey Sarah, it's Jake."

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July 15, 2011 5:01pm UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 1 9 .The phone at my side table starts to ring.Deciding whether to pick it up, I stare at it.Finally, I pick it up."Hello?""OH MY GOSH! SARAH! I MISS YOU!" Erica."Erica, I miss you so much, I feel like I haven't seen or talked to you in forever.""I know! I kept calling your phone, you wouldn't pick up! Then I called Jake and he told me the story! Are you okay!?""Oh yea..my phone broke..ha. And yea, I'm fine now, I just broke my leg.""Atleast you have crutches and can take the elevator and leave class early!"Erica always finds the best in things, that's why I love her."Yea, ha, I guess you're right, but it'll also be hard to manage going on an airplane..""A plane?! Where ya goin Sarah!?""Erica...I'm moving to California.."There's a long pause between both phones.Silence.Awkward silence."I'm so sorry Erica, I'm gonna miss you so much...Once I get out of the hospital, we'll all hangout and say our goodbyes."I could tell she's trying not to cry,"Okay..I'll let you get some rest now then, call me once you get out""Mhm, will do, i love you Erica, byye"She doesn't reply, just hangs up.A little bit of me starts to ache, saying goodbye is going to be harder than I thought..

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July 15, 2011 5:46am UTC

Am I the only one..Who thought it was duck tape?not ductORWho thought it was cereal killer?not serial

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July 15, 2011 5:31am UTC

Roses are red,violets are blue,I haVe five fingers.. and the middle one's for you.

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July 15, 2011 5:22am UTC

4 SoundsThat Drive Me Crazy Nails on a chalkboardKnuckles crackingMetal Fork on a glass plate Pencil Eraser when it gets too dull FAV IF YOU AGREE.

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July 15, 2011 5:06am UTC

I like FOOD. Just a little too much..

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July 15, 2011 3:36am UTC

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July 15, 2011 2:57am UTC

Things Change→ C h a p t e r 1 7 .(NEW FORMAT/FONT.) While Eric leaves, a nurse walks in."Oh, you're the hero of a boyfriend who saved Sarah here right?"He looks back at me, then to the nurse."Ha, no, just a friend."That hurt.I could tell she feels awkward, like she knows something happened before she walked in."Oh..Okay, well you're still the hero who saved her!"He looks back and me, smiling.I can't help but smile too.Still looking into my eyes, he replies to the nurse."Yup, that's me!"He looks away before I do and takes a deep breath."Well I guess I'll be going now!""Okay, just fill out these papers and turn them into the front desk please.""Sure thing."With that, Eric leaves and it's just me and the nurse."Okay Sarah, your mom is on her way here.She told me to tell you she has great news!And to fill you in on how you're doing..."She slides her rolly chair toward my bed with a stack of papers.Showing me an xray she continues to talk."See this is your leg here.While being pushed by Eric, being as big as he is, landed on you.He broke this bone here.We've already put on the pre cast, but we wanted you to be satisfied with the color of your choice,so we waited until you woke up for you to pick.""Oh, also, someone brought you these."She hands over a boquet of a dozen beautiful red roses.Then a card."I'll just send your mother up when she comes!""Thanks."She leaves quietly and I'm alone.I lay the flowers in my lap and open the card. Dear Sarah,I'm sorry to hear what happened.When Jake called and said what was going on, I quickly sent you these.I hope you like them. I know roses are your favorite.I'm sorry for being a dick to you on the phone last night too.I didn't mean to make you so angry.I'm just glad you're okay.And to be honest, here's a secret, I like you.I like you alot Sarah.I have, for a long time.I'm not sure it's a great idea to though any more...I can't wait till you're out of the hospital!I need to give you a hug, I miss you.Well please don't think I'm this weird stalker kid now.Get better soon Sars!From Max. SO SORRY IT'S SO SPACED OUT.SOME OF MY QUOTES ACTUALLY WORK, SOMETIMES.BUT LIKE THIS ONE, SOME OF THEM DON'T.I DON'T PURPOSLY DO THAT, STUPID WITTY MESSES IT UP.SORRRRRRRRY </3

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July 15, 2011 1:49am UTC

Things ChangeChapter16. A nervous look across his face as he studders a hello.His hands are deep in his pockets as he sways back and forth uncomfortably."I was hoping you'd be asleep so I didn't have to explain.."Right as he said that, all the memories played over in my head.Me being pushed, Mike, the gun, everything."Was..was that you who saved me..?" The words come out of my mouth with a raspy tone.He looks everywhere around the room except my eyes."You could say..."I sit up and lean my back against the pillow.A smile appears across my face unwelcomed."Oh my gosh, Eric, thank you so much..."He shrugs his shoulders like it was no big deal."Can you explain what happened..?""Well, I asked all around where you went after you left me on the dance floor.. everyone said you were dragged away with Mikeand drove away with him. I quickly got in my car and followed his.I knew something bad was going to happen right as he turned into the forest. I stayed my distance so he wouldn't know I was there.""What happened to Mike..?""After the gunshot, the police came, but they were too late.He ran away and his car was gone.."A pause of long silence occurs as I shiver with fear."Eric, what if he wants payback, or revenge?""It's okay Sarah, don't worry about it. How about you get some sleep?""Yea, I guess you're right, thanks again for saving me..""Anything for you Sarah."At that moment, a rush of a new feeling flows throughout my body.It starts at the tips of my toes and travels upward.It reaches my stomach and butterflies start to flutter around.The feeling rushes past my heart, and into my face where I'm left with a big smile.I think I love Eric Summers.Eric? Or Jake?

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July 14, 2011 6:53pm UTC

Things ChangeChapter15. "I don't know if you could hear me or not, but I guess I'll talk anyway.Your mom wishes she could see you, but she's working.I picked up Adam and came. You let me down Sars. But there's nothing we can do now.The past is the past.Forgive and forget, just please don't ever do that to me again.I was so worried when I found out.I love you Sarah."His voice is soft, so no one can hear, except me.He releases my hand and I hear his foot steps, slowly leave."I wuvv you Sawah, get better, I will see you waytur sissy.""Come on Adam, we'll come back when she wakes up."I open my eyes, and turn my head.I watch Jake and Adam leave the room, holding hands. I sigh, loudly, after the door closes.A turqoise sheet lays across me.A white pillow propped up behind my head.White walls.Beeping fills my ears coming from the machine next to my bed.Tubes are connected to my arm.I hear the door knob turn.I close my eyes right away, not wanting to talk to anyone.Foot steps come closer and closer to the side of my bed.Someone, a boy, coughs, clearing his throat.So familair.I need to open my eyes.But I won't.I don't want to.But I need to.I do.Those same, shiny, light grey eyes stare deeply into mine.F a v o r i t e →Press the [♥] if I should keep going.

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