My dirty little secret…
Does anyone else ever feel like they have someone, but it doesn’t exactly always feel like it? Or is it just me? I mean I feel terrible but I want someone spontaneous, who will give me flowers and talk to me every day and love me and just cuddle with me some nights, that’s all, just lay there with me. With a movie not doing anything, just laying there. I want someone who I know I can call whenever, who will always be there. Who will make decisions and be my backbone when I lose mine. I just want someone to listen and get me, who gives me back what I give. Who will just love me. And show me. They don’t even have to tell me, just show me in little cute ways. Someone who knows when to get closer and when to back away. Who will argue with me sometimes. Let me know it’s okay, reassure me that I’m safe. I just want to know they love me, not be told. Just know. In my heart, where it’s not even a question, I want someone who will throw rocks at my window and write my name in rose pedals in my yard. Who will tell me what’s going on in their mind. Who will just be real with me. Is that too much to ask for? Am I crazy?
sorry it's not pretty, worth the read. I just want to know if I'm alone.