Long, but worth reading..
BREAKING UP
Always seemed like something that happened to other couples. I felt bad for them, but
knew they would meet new people someday that would make them as happy as
my boyfriend made me. I wished for my friends to get boyfriends that are as good
to me as he was. I viewed me and my boyfriend as unbreakable, and that i could tell him
absolutely anything and he would be there for me no matter what and always love me.
But in time, the unbreakable couple splits up. I never cried so much in my life.
You never really know about it until it happens to you. I never knew why girls cried
so much over one guy when there's so many other guys, but now I understand.
You feel hopeless, and after dating someone for so long, you forget how to live without
them. You remember him holding your hand and kissing you in the school hallway,
saying that he loves you, just so that the next day you two will be broken up. It's all
those girls that liked your boyfriend you told off smiling that to two are finally over.
It's all of those relationship haters getting what they want. It's not hanging out with his
family anymore. It's loosing a best friend. It's walking past him in the halls with awkward
eye contact and going to your locker without him being there. It's hugging the teddy bear
he gave you while crying yourself to sleep. It's not being able to message him everything
that you feel because you know he doesn't feel the same anymore. It's hearing from other
people what he said about you because you and him aren't on speaking terms. It's going
to school and having to put on a fake face that your friends can see through anyways.
It's acting strong in front of your parents because it's better than having an awkward
vent session with them. It's remembering all of those hours we spent together on the phone,
talking about everything that ran through our minds, knowing you can't have another minute
like that on the phone with him ever again. It's feeling hopeless because the one person
you could be 100% yourself with doesn't want you anymore. It's being willing to give
everything you have just to get back to how it was yesterday. It's having your coach ask
you what's wrong and you lying saying you ate something funny that day. It's crying
your eyes out to your friends and venting how you feel even though you know they can't
do anything about it. It's going home to realize he changed his profile picture,
relationship status, and facebook password, without messaging you.
It's him being okay while you're broken in pieces.
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