Sometimes after all pain and harassing...I just don't know what to do with myself. Because telling them to stop won't work, telling an adult won't work. And they it's just a joke and they thought it was funny...I feel like punching a wall, but how will that make them stop. If I stop talking, eating, sleeping, working...because none of those will help me. I just don't understand what makes them think it's okay, to make me feel unsafe and like someone is always trying to hurt me. And how does that make them feel, do they get off on the fact I'm terrified of it, that I shut out the world and pray immediately when they do it. Is me sitting by myself crying and praying, wishing it will stop while continue and calling me a freak your top priority? Why is it so important that I feel suicidal every waking moment of my life when they're around, no still when they aren't around? I'm not stupid, I can see them staring and talking about me. When I pass by I feel all their stares of hatred burning into me. I don't know how much longer I can take it...
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