**Really long but worth readingg.**
What I wanted to say to him:
Honestly, I’ve been through a lot with you. I still remember the first time I met you. I thought you were into someone else, yet I was wrong. I have always had a thing for you, because from the day I met you I knew you were my type. I had my eye on other people too since it was only the first two weeks of school. You ended up getting together with my friend, while I ended up getting together with a different guy. Once the other guy and I were over, and you were turned down my my two close friends, we decided we would try it. It was my first time ever going to the tennis courts, and it was worth going. You had texted me saying to go out to break so I did, and then we went. There were also other people going to the tennis courts so we were not alone. That night was the start of you and I, and it was October 20th, 2011. The next day, which parents weekend, we made it official. You asked me if I wanted to take a walk with you, and of course I said yes. We walked down behind the hockey rink, and ended up at the turf of the field hockey field. I remember it like it was yesterday… You kissed me, very gently, then pulled away and said, “Will you be my girlfriend?” I was astonished. I was so happy I barley whispered a, “Yes!” back to you immediately. We then talked and you said, “Can we not make it facebook official for a little while?” and of course I was okay with that because I was used to waiting. We walked back to our dorms and I logged onto facebook and it said, “He is in a relationship with me.” I was really surprised but it was that little thing that made me like you so much more. A couple weeks later came the weekend of the snowstorm. I think it was one of the best days I have had at school. I remember us hanging out with the other two couples for the night and it was so much fun. It was a pretty eventful night… But it was definitely amazing. Fast forward a couple of months and we come to right before winter break, when I left for home. The night before I went home, you broke up with me. It honestly broke my heart. I had more anger because you wouldn’t tell me what was wrong, but I was also really sad. Then you ended up calling my roommate and confessed how you actually liked me and really regretted the break up. I was really happy the next day when we got back together, and you asked me to holiday ball. I ended up not being able to go because that Wednesday night was the night I went home because I was very sick. We really lost touch over break, and I was really sad because I still really liked you the entire time. Coming back from break, I thought I was over you. But then I saw you again and my feelings came right back. I was mesmerized by your eyes, and the way you looked at me. I loved it. Then we started hooking up again, but I thought you didn’t like me. Then one night, while hooking up I really felt like you didn’t like me, and it upset me. So when you said that you liked someone else, I chimed in that I liked another guy. I now realize that I didn’t actually like him and he was just a rebound from when you stopped texting me over break, which is when he started texting me. I really regretted the fact that I told you I liked him when I really didn’t because I later found out that you still had feelings for me. On Wednesday the 18th, I asked you if you wanted to get back together with me and I told you I didn’t actually like the other guy, and that he was a rebound. You took awhile to answer and I honestly thought I had a chance at first. Then realized I was just caught up in a dream. You didn’t like me, you just wanted to hook up with me? I don’t really know. All I do know is that even though this past Tuesday you told me you didn’t want to get back together with me, I’ll wait for you. I’ve never put myself out there like I did with you and at least I’ll know never to make that mistake again. Things I’ll miss the most? Your hugs. Your kisses… not necessarily the passionate ones…I really like the gentle kisses you used to give me. They made me feel appreciated. Last of all? I’ll just miss being together. With you.
What I did say to him: Honestly, you're really nice and a good friend of mine
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