chapter one .
I sit here, in my small square bedroom, with my head in my hands, wondering. 'How did this happen?' We were happy, but now your with another girl. It all happened so fast. I ask you over and over, “What happened?” but you never tell me, you always change the subject. I dont understand where I went wrong. I could say that I wish I'd never met you and that you've changed. That I am over you and I don't want you in my life anymore, but I would be lying; I'm glad I met you. I learned so much from you, and we shared many memories. You haven't changed, we've just grown apart. I will always have feelings for you. I want you in my life. I miss you, I miss who I was when I was with you. I felt safe in your arms, when you held me tight it was all I cared about. When we would talk, I would look into your eyes and it would only be us. The rest of the world would stand still.
“Zoey, are you ready? It's 5am and we need to leave,” mum said to me as I slowly look up.“Yes mum, I'll be right out,” I had swimming, I am was dreading the thought of it because it means that its closer to seeing you, with her.
“You need to stop day dreaming Zoey, one day your going to miss out on something important.” “Yes mum, I'll try to stop.” I always day dream, and it's only about you. I get distracted, and I think about what I could have done, what I could have said and all the things I regret. I do this all the time, mostly in the car and when I take long baths.
“Have fun Zoey, dont forget to take breaths and have a good day at school.”Mum always says 'dont forget to take breaths' to me when she drops me off at swmming. “Haha, I will.” I replied with a chuckle.
As I walk into the hot, stuffy building I swipe my member card and look around to see if I can find Abbie, my bestfriend. “ZOEY. WAIT UP!” I turn around to see Abbie running towards me with a giant grin on her face. I laugh to myself, seeing Abbie so happy makes me want to forget about everything that is going wrong. She always has this affect on me, that is why she is my bestfriend. Whenever I feel down, she will make me happy. Even though she knows I'm not happy she will put a smile on my face and make me laugh. But she will ask me whats wrong when were alone, and its just us. That is what I call a true friend. Swimming was great, I had fun. I didnt think about you at all, but now. It's all rushing back. Abbie and I are on the bus on our way to school, I am seriously dreading the thought of getting off this bus. I don't want to see you with her, it breaks my heart every single time. But I guess I just have to take it and deal with it. Abbie tells me constantly that if I give it time, you will realise that you do love me and that you still want me. I wish I could believe her, but I find it very hard. Theres a little hope in me, somewhere...