Lonely, Alone and Utterly Lost
Chapter One
"Dad? What's Wrong?" I asked into the phone as I slipped around the corner of the English Building
"It's mum....S-s" He started but broke off crying He didn't need to say it. I knew. Mum was....dead. She'd lost her Three year battle, she wasn't gong to be there when I got home.
"When?" I asked Suddenly my voice breaking I tried to ignore the stares of the people who passed me. I wasn't meant to use my phone during school but this wasn't a 'I-need-to-hear-my-boyfriends-voice' this was my mum just died.
"S-she died an hour ago" He told me, I sunk to the ground and hanged up my phone. This can't be happening I thought over and over again. It just can't.
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"Janie! Janie" I heard a Familiar voice call to me "Janie! Are you okay? Is it your mum?" She pulled me up and hugged me it was that simple gesture that made the tears start to run down my checks I was never going to see my mum again, she was never going to hug me never going to kiss me on the head and tell me everything was going to be fine.
"She's dead" I whispered to Scarlett, my best friend, as she hugged me. She pulled away her eyes watery, she loved my mum, "What? When? Oh my god" She hugged me again and we sat against the wall "D-dad called, h-he said it happened an hour ago" I told her as I gave up drying my eyes since the tears kept falling "Why is this happening Scar? It's not fair! She can't be go! She can't" I wept hugging my knee's to my chest. What if I didn't say Good-bye when I left for School? When was the last time I said I love you to her? I was a horrible person she died not knowing.
"Janie, It's not your fault, you couldn't change what happened you knew it was happening" Scar told me looking me in the eyes. She knew the look, I always stared straight ahead and avoided eyes contact when I thought I'd done something bad or not told my mum I love her before she died.
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I stared out Scarlett car window as she drove me home, I was in no state to drive as Mrs Vern told me so Scarlett was driving me home than she would get her sister to drive my car home when she finished work. "Thanks Scar- For driving me home- I don't know what I'd do without you" I told her looking away from the window and at her.
"It's okay, Your like my sister and I loved your mum. I'll her you though this" She told me not taking her eyes off the road. I knew she loved her she spent most her time at my place, her parent's spilt up when she was young and she's the youngest of 2 and her Sister doesn't live at home. She drove up my drive way and turned off the car "Do you want me to stay for a little while?" She asked looking at me with soft eyes, worried.
"No, I'm okay, I think I just need to talk to dad, I can imagine the state he's in" I told her looking at the house. the curtains were closed, which they never are, the place looked dead.
"Okay, I'm coming in, you need me and you've been staring at the house for five minutes" She told me getting out and opening my door
"Thank's" I told her as we walked up to the house.
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