Today sucks.
So, there’s this boy who has been my best friend for about one year now. We know pretty much everything about eachother. There was only one thing I never dare to tell him. And that one thing is, that I’ve been in love with him for over 5 months now. Untill two weeks ago I kept it as a secret, but finally I just had to tell him. He told me that he’s not quite into a relationship atm, and that I’m just a very good friend to him.
He lives about 2 hours from me, so I don’t see him very often. But last weekend I went to my aunt’s place, who lives like 10 minutes away from him. I stayed there for 4 days, and i spent 3 of those days with him. However, when we were together he was definately acting like he did have feelings for me. We made out, and more.. He even introduced me to his parents and he told them that i was the most beautiful girl he’s ever known. And I don’t know how other people think of that, but in my opinion you don’t do such things if you’re not in love with a girl.
But well, after I went back home he texted me that he already missed me and stuff, so I really felt like it was pretty serious between us. Three days later, however, he started to act a little weird and he didn’t answere my texts anymore. I didn’t want to ask him if there was something wrong immediately. I thought he might be buzy or something. But eventually I asked him if there was something wrong. He said that he wasn’t into talking and that he had to go. All he said before he went offline was; see you. No kisses, no ”love you”, what he usually says.
Now, this morning when i turned on my pc I received this offline-messages from him. He told me that he meant what he said 3 weeks ago, about not wanting a relationship. And that the way I’ve been talking to him lately scared him off. That he felt like we already were in a relationship. And that it might be better for me not to get in touch with him for some time.
Boys are weird creatures. There’s nothing more I can say.