I can't tell anyone else this, besides you know, the internet.
There's this guy, and I think I might like him. His name is Michael. He's funny, he's nice, he has an amazing smile, pretty brown eyes (not like the poop brown eyes, which are not pretty), he's smart, he plays hockey (which makes him that much more attractive), and when I look at him, I feel the urge to run to him and hug him and have him hold me and whisper jokes in my ear. But the thing is, I have a boyfriend.
A boyfriend I'm not good enough for. A boyfriend who is super sweet and nice and said he loves me. He's no jock, or really a nerd, just normal. We've been dating for a year on February 19. I would never be able to break up with him. And suddenly, I'm not as interested in making out with him or kissing him, or anything like that. I want to hold his hand or hug him or kiss him on the cheek at most. I'm not good enough for him, and I feel almost like I've been taking advantage of him.
A few days ago, in my study skills/resource seminar/guided study hall of only five people, a girl was talking to the teacher about how she and her boyfriend broke up. She told the teacher she felt like she had wasted and entire year and a half of her life, because she had dated someone she knew wasn't right for her. My teacher told us about advice her brother had given her as "Don't settle, don't be with someone who isn't right for you".
But what am I supposed to do if I'm the one being settled for?
This has been stuck in my head and I don't know who I can tell without them judging me. You're probably judging me.
How horrible am I?
What should I do?