I feel like a baby sometimes. I'm 13 and I don't take pills because I'm too afraid (comes with a story). I sleep with a lamp & a night light on (that's kind of a long story -// they that sleeping with dim lights is healthy, but it just makes me feel stupid.) & I sleep with music playing (they also say this is healthy, but listening to ocean sounds to fall asleep isn't exactly the coolest thing.) and last but not least, I still sleep with a teddy bear. three teddy bears, to be exact. but I don't really care about this one because my mom and sister both have to hug something when they go to sleep (my sister hugs a candy pillow named 'squshie' and my mom hugs a feather pillow named 'mushie' haha). I mean, I guess I can take small pills but even then I start freaking out. & one time I even freaked out so much that I didn't even swallow it, I just spit it out. and when I'm at a sleepover or something I can sleep in the dark& without music with no problem. but idk I just feel so embarrassed sometimes. it's like I never really grew up at all. :/ okay, and another vent: I have anxiety and I HATE it. so so so so much it's unbelievable. I mean God and my counselor are helping me through it but it's kind of always there, and I can't do anything about that. I still have anxiety over things that happened years ago, and months ago. and they're the most stupidest things ever but I can't really shake them. but that's what it's like with everyone with anxiety, ya know? so I know I'm not alone. and that comforts me a bit.
Okay I think I might delete this later, but I just had to get it out somewhere. Thanks for reading if you did, I really appreciate it.