Sorry, But I have to rant.
Letter you'll never see;
So, you decided to break my heart. I trusted you to not hurt me like everyone does & what other guys have done. I thought you were different, I thought you were going to treat me like a princess. You did what you had to. I remember all those memories. I'd walk you home everyday, and we'd have long deep conversations. And you looked out for me, made sure I was safe. Everything was going perfectly, I pictured we were going to be together for a long time. You looked at me and said 'I think we're going to be together for a really, long, long time.' You convinced me into it. Everything you said I believed it. I thought you were going to take care of me, but hell I can't even take care of myself. I feel like you let me down. I feel like i'm not good enough for you. You deserve all those pretty girls, not tiny old me. I couldn't afford to lose you, because without you i'm nothing. I'm scared of being hurt again. I trusted you with my heart. But you broke it, because we were 'moving too fast' but I don't think that's the case. Plus, you wanted to go into the army intead of being with me. How could you? You should've thought about that before you asked me to homecoming, AND ask me out. You couldn't just let me go, I would've been better without you in my life. I didn't need to be asked out, but I thought I'd give you a go. I don't want anyone else besides you, and you made me like this. You know i'm not mentally stable, and you put me through this. You're not sorry. You say you are, but I KNOW you aren't. You're already 75% moved on, and what, it's been a week now? It's going to take me 4 months. And I wasted 58 days on you, and I got too attached to you. I don't know where I went wrong. I tried my best to get you back, and try to talk to you about it, but you just ignore me. You said 'jeeze chill we're still going to be friends, i'm not going to shove you to the curb' but how do I know you're not going to lie to me again? You lied to my face. You said I was going to have to break up with you, not you. Earlier in the convo. It's all lies you feed to my face. You're going to love another girl after me. Probably next week. I'm not strong, and you know that. I'm broken down. Into pieces.. you see it on my face. You said you had to think about things, but you just my hopes up. You let me down so many times... I don't even know what to do anymore. I know it seems crazy to think about this way about a guy I met a few months ago. Out of all the guys who asked me out, you were the lucky guy I spent my time on. But you had to just let me down like everyone else. The sad part is? I'm probably going to give you another chance if you ask me out again. And I wish that would happen. You're so cute and irresitable and I just can't stop thinking about you, I wish you knew how I truly feel...
MiseryMischief