you know how hard it is to watch the person you've loved for years be with (someone) else?
especially when they broke up with you, for them.
especially when you know their secrets.
it's worse then heartbreak..
it's 3 trillion times worse.
& they expect you to be there best friend and for it to be like old times,
but you want to scream at them that you miss them, and you want them back.
but if you say that, then chances are they'll probably never come back to you.
you want to beat them with a baseball bat saying that they made a mistake,
but you know you wouldn't do that.
so you sit, patiently waiting for them to realize their mistake.
and sometimes it's the hardest thing to do..
i feel like giving up, and i'm close to it.
but i appreciate the effort you're making to talk to me.
i appreciate it more then you know..
but it's hard to see you with him & i can't talk to you about how i feel about that.
it's more then the usual i don't like it.
it's a lot more feelings then that.
i wish you'd ask me, ask me how i'm feeling about you & him,
and not get mad, but actually care about my feelings and how i'm feeling.
and the hardest part... i still love you.
after everything.
i'm still in love with you.
and he'll never love you like i do.
promise you that.