Why I can't trust my friends around me when i'm on facebook and when some one from my family comes in and peer over my shoulder, "he's a nice looking lad."
*You think I haven't noticed!?* I mean it's not like I stalk him... Just maybe I went through all his photos with other girls way prettier than me, probably more confident and four years older than me, it completely ruins everything I wish i was older. And it's way easer talking over facebook, i'd go all childish if we ever met, he's friends wth a really quiet girl I know who actually once you get to know her is really awesome, and that's part of the problem, I'm so jealous of her, she's tall, has pretty eyes and well yeah she's everything that i'm not, but he treats her like a kid, I feel like his best friend... I'm way too atatched.
Sucks.
Me: I want you to talk to me, but then again I don't...
Facebook: *The dude you like has messaged you*
Me: Nooooooooo not now, my friends are round! ermmm apear offline..
Dude: Helllooooooooo =) u there?
What he sees: seen 15:03
Me: nooooo not good, *sighs*
Friends: Ooooooooooooooo who's that!?
Me: *damn* Just erm... a friend of a friend.
Friend: Can I add him?
Me: *awkwarddddddddddddd* I guess..
Me to dude: Umm my friends added you...
Dude: Errr okai =D
*I think everything is cool*
Dude: Your friend's stalking me... o.O
...............................................................
Me to friend: WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? YOU ARE RUINING ME!
Friend: Aha! You really like him! =P
Me: No, we're just friends! *denying liking him..* and anyway he's like 4 years older than me!!!
Social life = Officialy OVER
Right now I'm supposed to be doing homework, yet I'm sat here over-thinking everything i've said and done. Wondering why I can spill my heart out to randomers and my friends haven't a clue... I guess that's just typical of me.
And I'm probably 1 out of millions of girls just sat telling a true story that people can relate to without it being awkward.
InsecureButnatural