yesterday, i hung out with my friend, her boyfriend, and a friend of my friend. It was fun cuz i didnt feel akward and alone. we went to lazer quest and had a party with just the 4 of us. then, we went on a walk up my friend's street with her dog. while i was talking to my friend, her boyfriend came up to her and kissed her... right in front of me.... TWICE!!!!!!!! and she already got her first kiss. so now she has been kissed 3 TIMES, her friend got her first kiss too. and im all alone with no kiss, no boyfriend, no nothing. I just pretended i wast jealous, but inside i was like "WHAT THE F***!!!!! U got kissed 3 F***ING TIMES AND IM JUST STANDING HERE WATCHING 2 OF THEM!!!!!!! Y DOES LIFE HATE ME?!?!?!?!" sometimes, i hate her cuz she gets everythin and i get pain and lonliness.
f*** her, my life, and everything.