Guys, im so scared,
okay so lately the whole thought of actually eating has made me feel digusted with myself. ive made myself throw up everything i eat. i dont know why i feel like this. maybe its because im depressed. maybe its because i havent cut in awhile. i just dont know. i mean my mom sits there and tells me to eat, but i just dont want it. the last thing i ate and actually kept down was about 4 days ago. i mean i try eating but something in my body just tells me to throw it up. im so scared. i used to be anorexic. and i dont want to go back. ever. i mean people tell me to eat, but i just cant do it. i mean kids at school call me fat all the time so maybe thats why. but i just dont know what to do anymore. if you read this, i love you. honestly you guys are my life.♥♥♥♥♥