radiancy * · 9 years ago
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
Yea, I don't know why people associate not talking with being rude or stuck up....I wish people would understand some people are just that way, and they are not being rude...I don't like small talk, I like conversations with a point
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
me too i'm really bad with small talk! someone asked me if it was because i was too good to talk to other people but the truth is i just don't have much input:( but i totally agree with you and this quote
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
oh i know that feeling...when people act like a quiet person is better than them, it is so annoying...I'm just quiet, haha, I couldn't be more loud if I tried to be
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
i'm not one for attention either haha i actually enjoy getting unnoticed not sure if its a good or bad thing!
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
I enjoy getting unnoticed too:) when I do get attention, it always makes me uncomfortable
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
when you do get attention do you not like it because you feel like you're being judged?
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
I mean I do want attention sometimes, but because I am insecure and have social anxiety, it makes it hard for me to carry a conversation with someone...I mean the other day, someone on here who I didn't know said "your beautiful"...and it made me feel awkward, I can't explain it, I am so used to getting ignored...I do wish I had more friends though
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
i totally get that. i'm really sorry that you get ignored no one should get used to that feeling. loneliness, in my opinion, has mental and physical pain :( that's awful i'm very sorry! i do get what you mean, though. i have some social anxiety and its hard for me to look people in the eye when i talk to them
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
That is true. Loneliness does have mental and physical pain. It is okay, I am used to it. I also have trouble looking people in the eyes, I get what you mean
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
that truly breaks my heart i'm so sorry :( how does anyone who knows you just ignore you? you're the kindest and most understanding person i've ever met. like you're so kind hearted and i just don't understand it :(
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
And thank you for the compliment:)
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
Well, I am quiet, and it is hard for me to make friends...I am really different from my parents and my siblings, (i have a twin sister and I am nothing like her)...my parents get mad at me because I've had anorexia for 8 years and I still have it and it makes them sad and they don't want to talk about it, so that is isolating....and no one around me seems to appreciate the fact that I love to write. I mean all the poems I have posted on here, I have never shown them to my family or anyone....I think I get ignored because people think I am weird, and when they find out I have the problems I do, they don't want to deal with them, so I think that stops me from having friends and stuff
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
having a twin is hard, i also have a twin but a brother. its hard being compared all the time:( but they shouldn't get mad at you for anorexia its not like you chose to have it and chose to live with it :( its heart breaking. your writing is absolutely beautiful and its sad they can't appreciate it. its mesmerizing and i love reading it. you write so beautifully. you don't deserve any of that you really don't and i think you're unbelievably strong
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
Aw, thank you...My parents do act like I am choosing to do this, which makes me feel very isolated, and it makes me feel like I am being vain...And I'm not. Thank you for the compliment about my writing:) I don't feel strong, but I am glad that you think I am
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
i really think you're strong! one of the strongest people i have ever met, in fact. i'm sorry that they think that because it is most definitely not true:( i hope you beat this struggle one day! you're in my thoughts and my prayers
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Ashleyray123 · 9 years ago
Thank you so much:) Your kindness is so helpful
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radiancy * · 9 years ago
you're so very welcome :)) i'm glad you deserve nothing but kindness and good vibes!
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