You can go through life with out a care when you dont like the people but it changes when you start to have feelings for this person.  But one mistake can change how that one person feels about you.  I made a mistake on 4/20 and now i dont think i have a guy who is going to be there for me the way he said he was going to be... i cant help but think about the way i treated him and the way i back stabbed him like i did.  i just want to grow the balls and tell him that i truly am sorry.  last night telling him how i felt it..he was happy that i told him but not so much when i said that i want to stay with you.  i guess that means i am on the rocks with this person... i hate my life right now... :/