SOMETIMES i want to just disappear. 
                        i feel unwanted or left out. 
                        i make myself feel that way.
                        i chose to be left out.
AM i making the right choices?
      i losing friends for this?
      i don't like the feeling i knowing my limits.

My limits are strong and i am committed to this relationship.
I can't risk heartbreak because i want to have fun.
There are many ways to have fun, be free and party.
My friends might not think so but i am in love. 

I DON'T NEED to have fun to know what i want.
                           to impress guys or find that spotlight. 
                           i already caught someone's eye.
                           i found my click.
                           
Why show off some girl i am not. 
Because that's how all girls act.
When they are desperate for attention. 
I was one of them.
I craved compliments.
I craved the persuasion.
All of my decisions have left me where i am now. 

I AM happy.
        content.
        in love.

Who says we need to have fun to find out what we want.
Sometimes it's better when you let it find you. 

-alibreines