there were many times over the school year that i gave you the benefit of the doubt and i took you back.  it has been a month that we have been talking again and you said that everything has changed in you and i believed you.  show me that you are not lying to me, show me that you love me like you did before, show me that i am the only that you love!  josh i love you and i cant believe you are doing it again.  everything was fine until you said something last saturday.  you are smoking again... i cant deal with that right now. i cant go through everyday wondering if you are smoking did you forget that my grandma passed away from that but i guess i will let it go and hope you dont do it around me....i love you josh!