you want to know the truth???

you want to know everything that ever happened to me? i could never bring myself to tell anyojne what have happened to me in my past...and thats why i hate saying i love you to people. no one willl eber understand how many people that i said i love you to just got up and left me and forgot about me...i am hurt and lost adn not really sure what to do...i am a girl that thinks about killing myself because i think it is the easiest way out...i feel like i will never be good enough for anyone because my aunt has told me over and over i will never be good enough and that im fat and that im stupid... why does she have to me all these things...my family is falling apart adn i dont know what to do...you keep saying i can trust you but from my past i am sooo afarid to even think about trying to trust you... you tell me to open up and i dont know if i am ready to open up...you sat there and read through my iPod and told me that everything will be ok...gallitz you can not hide me from this stupid, crazy, insane world... if you got a sneak peek into my life, you would go crazy. but yet i opened up to you and you made me feel safe and that nothing was going to happened to me...why does it feel to me that you are lying...i dont know if i should trust you or not....