I’ m Sorry

The best times
In my life
Are with you.
You give me
Security
And I never
Have to
Worry about
Anything.
When you
Place you hands
Onto my back,
Your chest on
Mine,
And when our
Lips connect
For a plan,
Old hug,
Or even
Just being
In your presence
I feel loves.

But just in
An instant
Everything can
Change.
You put
The same
Hands
That secures me
In places
They don’t belong.
The lips
That I felt
Love from,
Words of hate
Came out
Towards me.
I take unto
Your hands.
And move
Them to somewhere
That’s ok.
But you don’t
Get the signal
So you move
Back.
And you make
It worse
Then before.
You squeeze
And rub harder
And harder
Upon me.
I start
Feeling nervous
And scared
At the same time.
And I don’t
Know what
To do.
I ask you
To stop.
But you
Do listen.
You keep going.
I yell STOP!!!
Over and over.
And then and
Only then
You stop.
You say to me
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I promise I’ll never do it again”
The guilt,
The fear,
The girl inside
Of me
That just wants to be
Loved anyway
She can get it.
Takes over me.
And believes you.
You kiss me
Lightly on
My forehead,
And whisper
In my ear.
“Everything will be ok”

The next
Day comes.
I see you again,
With my feelings
Of hurt that I
Blocked out.
When were close
In each others
Presents, we kiss.
But as soon as
My love for you
Becomes so great
You do it
Again!!
I ask you to stop.
You don’t listen.
You just continue.
And make it feel worse.
I start yelling
Over and over,
STOP…STOP!!
Then and only
Then you stop.
You say to me.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I promise I’ll never do it again”
For the same
Reason as always
I believe you.
You take me
Into your arms,
And we hug.
While we’re hugging
I remember
In the back
Of my mind
That the words
“I’m sorry”
Don’t mean a thing.