He didn't have to end so hard. 

"I don't think its happening"

THROUGH a TEXT!!!

I was crushed. 

I went for a walk and dropped to the ground!

Feeling my heart break in half.

and now when i think about him, or see a picture of him

I seriously cant stand it. 

I loose my breath.

Think my world is going to end.

Cry my eyes out one more time.

I don't know how many times I've cried myself to sleep.

But its over now and all i can do is think of the wonderful memories we had.

Even though i get mad then sad then smile.

I just have to think he did it for the best. 

I'm hoping.

It would have been 11 months yesterday.


Not pretty i know but idk how to.