ever since you said goodbye my life has been a mess. It seems like nothing has gone right. everynight when i close my eyes i dream about you. no matter how hard i try i cant get you off my mind. everyone says im better than you. but am i really? just because you left me for happiness doesnt make me better than you. as long as you are happy i will fake a smile and hold back my tears. as i sit here and write my feelings on paper knowing that you will never how i really feel tears fill my eyes. but i wont let them fall. i promised myself that i wouldnt show weakness. but i can only stay strong for the moment because as soon as i get home i fall apart. i am strong today but tomorrow i will be weak. everyday when i look in the mirror a tear falls down and i say to myself i dont wanna be me anymore. i cry myself to sleep at night thinking about you. you meant the world to me.and i guess i meant nothing to you. you still mean alot to me but its slowly starting to fade.i care about you more than she ever will. i've kept myself from saying this but i have to get this out as much as it kills me to know that im so deeply in love with you and you couldnt care less. my heart is in tiny pieces and nobody can fix it but my tears and pain only make it worse. but over time i will slowly get over this heartbreak that has caused me so much pain. i can only hope and pray that my feelings for you change but for now i will sit here crying and dwelling on what we had. this may not be our time but no matter deep down i will always be waiting for you..