So, you let go of this guy and
he was everything you'd ever wanted & much much more.
he was the most important person in your life, you couldn't eat,
sleep, breathe or even live
without him. you loved him. You were with him for the longest
time, atleast long enough to
fall in love at such a young age but you loved him for so long,
you started taking him for granted,
you got mad for no reason at all, you started to yell at him
& ignore him when really this guy did nothing to you. you
laughed when you had fights because you never really thought he'd
leave you & that you never thought you break up, only because
you thought you were made for eachother.
you loved him way to much - you cared to much, therefore you
didn't trust him at times when you most needed to, you thought he
was always doing something to hurt you when in reality - you were
just hurting yourself, but everyone knew he wasent that type of
guy, he would never intend to hurt a girl. you didn't realize his
feelings for you, you didn't realize how lucky you were to have
him, and you were the only one that had him. You stopped talking
to this guy, because of all the doubts in your mind, and after a
while – you knew things were going to end. you were fine
with it at first. but as soon as it happened you felt your heart
split in half. You were going through a heartbreak. nothing would
make you happy, you couldn’t leave the house, you
couldn’t even get out of bed. you felt horrible, knowing
you let something go, that meant so much to you. you can't even
picture yourself with anyone else but him. all you do is think
about why you made this miserable decision, and after months and
months - you still don't have an answer. everything you do
reminds you of him, everywhere you go, your reminded of the
memories. he meant the world to you and nothing anyone does will
make you forget about him. he taught you what love felt like. now
you feel forgotton. like you were nothing to him, your feelings
are buidling up inside because no one else knows how you're
feeling, theres no one there to help you. they say they do, but
they dont. you've never hurt this much in your life. maybe you
were the only one that wanted the relationship. maybe he knew it
wasn’t long term. But no one can change the past, so maybe
this happened for a reason. Saying goodbye, only leads to a new
hello, right? But now you know how I feel, who ever is reading
this and let me tell you i'll always love him and you can't
change that- no one can. you'll always be in my memory & i'll
never let go of my past, I will be here waiting – no matter
what it leads to.
-- yeah, its really long but please read it. it means alot
:)
