07/13/09
I don't
know how you do this. It's been nine whole months, and you still
have the best of me. I've moved on, I really have, but there's
just something about you that keeps me coming back, having second
thoughts. What if we really were meant to be, and you just didn't
see that. What if we're throwing away the most beautiful thing
ever.I get it, you have her, and yeah I am dating someone new,
for three months now. But you boy, ohh you, you really know how
to get to the girls heart.You really know how to get right deep
into the girl, tear her apart, and break every dream she has.
Break every last nerve, and make sure she never trusts again. You
like that too ? You like the fact that someone cares enough about
you to cry over you ,and obsess over you. You love the fact that
you can break me down, shatter my little heart, and in one second
you say something nice and i'm right back to loving you. I used
to love those stupid little jokes we had, and those late night
phone calls.I miss the way you used to tell me everything, and we
were like best friends.It's sad to say that i still remember the
day we all hung out, and you couldn't stop staring at me.The
smile you had whenever we would catch eyes, it could kill.The way
our lips came soo close to touching, but never really happend. I
can honestly say that you taught me boy, you taught me you don't
always get what you want in life.If you want something, work for
it.If it doens't work out, let it go.,If it comes back it was
meant to be, If it doesn't leave it be.But don't you
ever say something was not worth it,
because whatever you did put you where you are now.Don't
ever regret something that once made you
smile, because at that moment you didn't care about a thing in
the world, you didn't care about the wars in other country's, you
didn't care about the starving children, you didn't care about
the fact that you have a huge exam the next day. All you cared
about was that you and him connected for that one moment, that
you were bothing thinking about eachother and it made you feel
happy.That smile was a memory that will never fade, even if, i
don't mean a thing anymore.
But the best thing you taught me, was never say goodbye. Becuase
goodbye means going away ,and going away means forgetting, and
forgetting you would be the biggest mistake of my life.So promise
me , weather you hate my guts, or end up marrying me,
never,ever,say good-bye
<'3.
