Been anticipating all day to get on here and see you wrote me a big paragraph to indulge in. But nothing. Went to the surgeon today and told him I didnt want surgery. So that just means a whole lot of physical therapy. Besides that got a job offering for $15 instead of $13 so thats exciting. Drowning in feelings since Im not drunk. I wonder how long I can stay afloat before I just give in to the sweet realease of alcohol. (Weds @5:41)