I was so stupid.
Thinking
you cared.
So so stupid.. You
asked if I
wanted anything,
I said no. But
in all honesty, I
want to be dead. Or
sleeping, Or in the
middle of
the ocean, Or anywhere where
there is no
one, where I can't feel
this. I want you back,
But I can't
have that. I
want to cry, But
I want to
be strong,
I want to cut,
But I want
pretty skin,
I want happiness,
But thats something I will
never get. I screwed up, And
what I
did can't be
fixed. I have
made a mess of
myself. And
I can't blame
anyone else.
This is
me, but it
isn't who I
want to be
