I pretended I didn't look
at you when you didn't notice I was.
I pretended not to light up
when you entered the room.
I pretended not to be upset when we got into a fight.
I pretended I didn't look forward to seeing you everyday.
I pretended that I wasn't hurt when you broke my heart.
I pretended I didn't miss you when you didn't come
around.
Now all these lies to myself have showed me
that
I miss you so much; more than I had realized.
