I am not suicidal.
I will not kill myself.
Just because I know how I want to die, does not mean I will do it.
It does not mean I will use that knowledge.
It does not mean I have given up.
It does not mean that you need to worry.
It does not mean you need to keep an eye on me.
I will cope with how I am.
I will carry on.
It is very likely I will use that knowledge in the future.
But not for at least a couple of years, hopefully.
I will not leave you.
I will stay strong.
If only for you and no-one else.
I will stay.
For you.
For now.
I will be there.