“Sometimes
you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making
breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some
reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing
there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry
cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re
reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are
springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far
less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in
your skin or in your house and you just want home but
“Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home
anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your
phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for
anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling
trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and
thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that
you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time
you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how
you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is
just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The
coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out.
You’re going to be fine in about five
minutes.”
-The Winter of the Air
“Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen
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Oct 30, 2013 9:42pm