January 7th 2013

That was probably one of the worst days of my life. 
I lost my sister. My beautiful role model. 
My life line. 
I miss her so much I can barely handle it anymore.

I just want to be with you. I want to hold you and hug you and remind how much I love you.
Why did you have to take your life?
Why couldn't you stay?
I'm sorry for those people who taunted and tortchered you.
I'm sorry for anything I ever did to upset you.

I miss you so much Angela Michelle Warzecha
You are so beautiful. 
I need you so much right now 
You were always so good at helping me in the situation I'm in
I could come to you with no judgment on your end. 
I trusted you with more than I ever trusted anyone with
I cried on the phone to you so many times. 
I cried on you so many times.

Our trip to New York with Jerrod and Jorden
Hanging out at Jorden's gma's house.
This summer is going to be so different without you baby girl.
Please come home. 
We can run away.
You won't ever have to see those people who hurt you ever again. 

I know it's not possible. 
But I wish I could at least come visit you. 
If heaven wasn't so far away. 
I would see you every day
I would come see you and hug you and tell you how my day went.
I'd listen to how amazing the pools are in heaven. 
I'd cry to you and try and take you home with me.
I miss you so much. 

If I had one more day with you 
I'd spend it doing anything you wanted
I'd let you cry on me
And I'd get the names of all the people who ever hurt you. 
I wish I could've helped you more. 
Every day I blame myself for you being gone. 

I know you're still here Angie.
I know you're with me as I type this. 
I know that you're in my heart. 
I know that you love me still.
I love you Angela Michelle Warzecha.