Chapter 46:
"Nick. It's Becca. I miss you and I want you
back. I'm done with Harry.I was stupid to ever leave
you. I'm sorry. I'm in America and I want to
see you again. Please call me back.I'll be at the
Courtyard Mariot in Massachusetts by where we used to
live. I love you." I choked back tears and the bile
that rose in my mouth as I left the message.
I just want to go home. Why does he have to be such a
d**k? Theres nothing amazing about me. Why is he so
attatched? Im not anything special. Just a plain girl thats
basically being blackmailed by her ex to get her best friend
back. Great. F**king great.
I layed down on my bed and cried. And cried. And cried some more.
"F**k what am I getting myself into?" I screamed into
my pillow.
**THE NEXT MORNING**
I woke up and took a long shower to calm myself and get ready for
today. Nick called me back last night and said he wanted to see
me and that he missed and loved me too. Needless to say I was
going to meet him at his house at 10:00.
I looked at the clock. 9:45. "S**t" I muttered and left
the hotel.
Even though he only lives down the block I left early so I could
go over my lines and prepare myself for what was about to
happen.
I got to his house with 5 minutes to spare. My plan was to get
there early and try to get him to hate me by acting more clingy
than he was. Damn this'll be hard.
I knocked and he opened the door immediately. Well...
he's gotten hotter. And creepier. Was all I could think
when I saw him smile. For a second I saw a flash of the old Nick.
The one that was always nice to me and was really sweet. Then I
saw his greedy side come out and I mentally flinched when he
grapped my hand. But on the outside I looked like I was basically
swooning over the touch. Man I should be a f**king
actress.
"Baby. Mmm I have missed you so much." He looked me up
and down and I blushed. Not purposefully.
When he started to change I would notice the hungry look in his
eye that showed he only wanted me because he thought it would be
easy to get in my pants. And at the time I was the chubby person
who was elated to get any kind of attention from a guy and he
took advantage of me beyond belief.
No-one knew about that. All Harry knew was that I broke my hymen
between gymnastics and softball. What he didnt know was that Nick
took it. I didn't want anyone to know because I was
embarressed and scared of what people would think.
"I've missed you too babe." I batted my eyelashes
and tried to remember anything that was good about him to make
this whole flirting situation easier.
He dragged me into his house and pushed me against the wall.
Please make it stop.
Pretend its Harry, Becca. You need to convince him that you love
him and get him to trust you.
I moaned and he smirked, walking us back to his room.
**3 months later (journal entries)**
I cry everynight after he falls asleep. He is the heaviest
sleeper I knew other than Niall and he wouldnt wake up if he
heard me.
This whole time I've been in pain. He isn't sweet or
gentil about it like Harry used to be. He always hits me when I
talk back. After a week of staying with him he decided that I was
being good and he sent Alyssa back and told her to tell the boys
that if they ever tried to come after me then he'd kill
me.
I haven't left the house since. I'm too afraid to try. I
know he'd catch me and he'd hurt me again.
I once tried to sit on the porch and he saw me open the door and
I'll just say that I've never tried to even go near the
door since.
I try to act like a good little girl and I am 99% of the time.
But sometimes I slip and he lashes out.
I miss my family so much. I miss Harry. I miss the boys. I miss
Alyssa.
I know I'll probably never see them again. And it tears me
apart everyday.
**2 months later (journal entry)**
Today he finally let me outside. I didn't try anything
though. I'll wait till he completely trusts me before I try.
I'm getting close. I'm coming Harry.
**2 weeks later (journal entry)**
Today he said he trusted me to go outside and lay in the yard
without him being there. I'm not going to ruin this plan.
I'll be good today too. But trust me. I'm not staying any
longer than I have to.
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Heey guys I know it's been a while but I've been busy and
some stuff has gone down but I'm going to try to finish the
story soon:) sorry about the swears and sad stuff but its gonna
start to show up a little bit more... ENJOY!:)