& I keep thinking about breaking up with him. Not because he did anything wrong. Not because I don't like him anymore. Actually, it's the opposite. He's perfect and I like him way too much. I'm afraid. I don't want to fall in love. I don't want to like him this much. Because this happiness will end, and I don't want to deal with it again. I'd much rather be alone. No fear of hurting myself or hurting others. Just myself to care for.