Dad, I was your baby girl, your daughter that loved you more than was going to love anyone. You were my hero. The person I looked up too. The one that I used to find guys… until you decided to walk out of my life. Leaving me without parents. You paid a lot of money to get me. You spent a lot. I mean a lot of money to get me. What’s the point of doing that to your own flesh and blood. You told me I was the best thing in your life once. Now… what am I a piece of sh*t? Something you make but don’t want? I mean honestly, you always told me that you wouldn’t leave! You told me you wouldn’t be like Mom. 

I don’t f*cking care how much you think you love her. She doesn’t honestly love you. She is using you for your d*ck and money. That is all she wants. I know this because she is just like a wh*re. Sorry to say but it’s the truth. She blamed me for all your problems on the beach that one day, and sits in the bedroom and tells her ex that you don’t have any problems… then what the f*ck did I get blamed for? Honestly? 

Want to know how hard it is to not take a knife to my wrist? To not want to be here anymore. I am sick of people telling me it’s better off without you. Who am I supposed to tell my children someday that their grandfather is? I already know that I’m gonna have to explain to them that there Mommy wasn’t worth anything to her father. Especially before she turned sixteen. I hope whoever I marry treats me way better than you. I lost mom. I really never planned on losing you. You left… because you wanted to put your own wants and needs before your child. Sorry, but that is f*cking pathetic. I’ve gotten sick so much since this last summer, after that day on the beach. I am pretty sure, I have ulcers. Because of you, and her getting me so upset. It’s kinda hard not to cry when you sit there holding her hand as she cries, while she b*tches out your own flesh and blood…. 

I am f*cking done.. i don’t want to be here anymore.. the only reason why i stay strong is because i don’t want to have my friends go through their problems by themselves..but one these days I’m just gonna f*cking snap on you… i am gonna scream exactly what I’ve been holding back…. done …sick of it… sick of you and your bullsh*t….