This is a vent, you don't have
to read it... Sorry.
So, all my life I have been extremely close with my
parents. All of my life I have been friends with guys. I have grown
up with them. As soon as I turned 13, my parents said that I
couldn't hang out with guys outside of school anymore. When we
would hang out it wasn't even a big deal. We would sit in my
room and play games on the XBox, or in the living room playing on
the Wii, like I said, it was no big deal since we were strictly
best friends. My mom told me that I needed to stop haging out with
them. That, I needed to get more friends that are girls. The
problem with that is that girls don't like me. They have always
hated me for always being around guys. I was not okay with this. I
immediately went into my room and broke. Who else would I hang out
with? My parents were expecting me to give up my best friends. So,
I tried making friends that were girls. Immediatly rumors were
spread, bad. I would say how I who I have hung out with since I was
three, about 10 guys that were my best friends. Then everything I
do isn't good enough. Oh, you got an 80 on your test? WHAT IS
WRONG WITH YOU!? YOU ARE SO LAZY? Then my sister comes up with a
70... Oh! Good job honey!... Wow. It's like, what I do is NEVER
good enough... My older sister that moved out said I should see a
councelor. I guess my parents used to do this to her and that is
why she moved out when she was 17. They expect more out of me than
I can give. :/ Just like how when I got a boyfriend. My mom
immediately started saying how she couldn't believe how I could
just have so much disrespect for her. To get a boyfriend at 13?
That is terrible. She is telling me that when my older sister (That
still lives with us) Has always had a guy as her boiyfriend since
she was 12! Then I haven't even had my first kiss yet and I
can't even hang out with him. Also I get yelled at for
everything. When I was asleep in the car I got in trouble for
supposedly making distracting noises when my sister was doing all
of them! How she always makes "jokes" on how I am adopted
and unloved, and she never gets in trouble. I tried making ONE,
JUST ONE of those jokes to her and I got yelled at and put in my
room. I hate it. I get blamed for everything. They always say that
I should go hang out with my friends more often, but since my best
guy friends were basically taken away from me by my parents I
can't. Also when I do find someone to hang out with they will
say no. That is why I am always in my room on the computer
listening to music. Maybe because music understands me better than
they do...? They are always SO judgemental of me and everyone I
talk to. I can't stand it.
I just want to be 17 already so I can
move out of this helll hole...
This is a vent, you don't have to read it... Sorry. So, all
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Nov 7, 2012 6:42pm
