You, yes
you. I want to tell you
right now if you're thinking about hurting yourself,
starving yourself, or making yourself throw up,
don't do it. What you think of now
as a "one time thing" probably
won't be. You think you can starve for a week, lose
some weight and go back to normal. You think you hate yourself
now so you'll hurt yourself, but just this once, to get back
at yourself. Or that because you ruined your diet and binged or
whatever the reason is you can just make yourself throw it up,
but only this one time. I'm sorry but it
doesn't work that way. The first time is a
gateway, you realize you have the power, so you do it more.
The once becomes twice, then it's occasional, next thing
you know it's daily. You always said you could stop if
you wanted, but soon you realize you can't,
you trapped yourself. It tears you away from your
family, your friends, keeps you from having fun, from enjoying
life, you're stuck. Part of you wants to
stop but the destructive part takes control and you can't,
you can't even ask for help. And when you think
back... you realize it would've been so much easier
to restrain from it the first time. You
wish you had, because now, you don't even know where to go or
what to do. So please stop it
before it starts. Tell someone now, it isn't too late, it
isn't too early.
paraphernelia · 1 decade ago
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Definetly. It is sooo hard too stop. If you feel like you want too.. go talk too someone, walk out of the bathroom and go DO something, eat that food that you honestly know you want. I've struggles with self-harm for a long time and it is so difficult, you CANNOT control it and eventully it becomes hard too keep it a secret. Excuseing yourself too go throwup, making sure your scars are hidden, or explaining why you never eat. i wish I would've walked away and talked too someone the moment i thought about it. I got help, but it took awhile for me too ask for it. And even now, ten months later, I slip up, give in, and the shame and regret afterwards isnt worth it. It's a struggle each and every single day. But I want too get better. I need too. It's not healthy, and you may think oh, i can stop or get help if it gets out of hand, im determined enough too fight it, its not that easy. I love that people post things like this because I wish before i started, i would've known, that I would have read a quote like this and knew how it would affect me later.