Nothing
is forever.
Chapter 5
The Monday after we hung out, I had
problems. I've always been a suicidal person, and I get
depressed a lot. I have bad anxiety and bipolar disorder, which
makes matter worse.
I started freaking out and asked Josh for help.
I started to tell him everything, and how depressed I was.
I told him how I felt about him. I told him I thought he was
playing me and using me.
He was saying how he would never do that, but I couldn't
believe him.
"CORTNEY I LOVE YOU." He screamed to me.
That's where I fell in love. I knew, for the first time, he
was the guy I've been needing.
The next day was Valentine's day, he came up to me with a
note. "Read this when you can. And then text me." He
told me and gave me a huge hug.
"Dear Cortney, happy Valentine's day. You mean so
much to me. As we all know, I love you with everything I have.
It's crazy how you can know someone for less than two months,
and be completely in love. I would like for you to be my
valentine. And not only that, but please be my beautiful
girlfriend?"
And with that, I was his girlfriend. I went home with him that
day. We had a fun time doing absulutely nothing. We didn't
kiss, we didn't touch eachother, we talked. And I loved it. I
loved him.
There was something starting here and we both felt it. As crazy
as it was, we were mean't for each other. I couldn't ask
for anyone better.
We started our relationship.
With nothing planned, no regrets, and just love.
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