WHAT
IF?
I
remember the day I first talked to Adam like it was yesterday. At
the time he was non officially dating my best friend Kassie.
Every night Kassie and I would talk on the phone, and she kept
bringing this kid up! So finallly I told her to three way us, but
she couldn't on her phone so I had to call him off mine and
conjoin us three. Kassie wasn't by the phone when I had
called him so it was just me and him talking. A little tad-bit
about me is I laugh... I laugh allll the time... so when we were
on the phone I laughed and he said "you laugh
aaalotttt" and that was it. We became best friends after
that... If I would've known then that I would be here...I
would do it all over again
anyway..
It's almost
been a year since Adam "ran away". People have stopped
staring at me, and asking how I'm doing. I think they're
actually annoyed with the topic of Adam. I'm kind of
relieved.. It breaks my heart to talk about him. I know,
that's probably normal, your best friend of two years,
boyfriend of 6 months, the love of your life runs away and no
one's heard from him since. It is probably supposed to hurt
to talk about him. In a way though, I love talking about him, I
love what made us us, and I love talking about him. I only love
talking about him though, if I'm the one that does it. I get
really jealous, mad and actually it hurts me when other people
talk about him. Mainly because when they do it's about him
and another girl.
I don't know though, I guess I just keep waiting for him to
come home. For him to remember what we had, to remember how much
I love him, how much everyone loves him and misses him, to
realize if he comes home we can get passed this and that
everything will be okay.. For some reason
though, I don't think it's going to
be..
