Everything feels like it's slipping from my grip…
like I'm fading into the shadows…
the numbness is coming back and there's nothing I can do to stop it but keep that fake smile on my face..
The one I know so well.
But everyone around me is happy so I refuse to drag them down into my overdramatic, pitiful life.
I WISH THEY WOULD ALL JUST DISAPPEAR FROM MY MEMORY. THEY SCARRED ME. I WANT TO BE HAPPY, BUT WHEN I GET CLOSE TO IT… their faces and words all come back… they remind me that I don't deserve happiness… that I don’t deserve love.
They are out of my life, but their words wont go away.
I think I need some help, but right now
music and my little knife are all I need.