So last night I had a "Heart to Heart" with my mom, and I've realized I really can't talk to her about anything. My mom tries to ignore the personal issues and ny insecurities because I'm supposed to be her golden child. I put on a huge front, I pretend to be confident and to have a high self-esteem but honestly, I doubt EVERYTHING I do. The voice in my head is constantly telling me I'm not good enough or that I could have done better than that. I look in the mirror and wonder how I have friends. I go to practice and wonder how I made the team. I just had to let this out today because I've just been bottleing up for so long.