I've always been pretty strong mentaly, and I've never actually wanted to cause self harm to myself, and I've always been able to stay headstrong, but until lately, thats all changed, i trust no one, i dont know why, I never feel like I fit in with anyone, and even though I smile and all that when I'm in a group, theres always this "empty" feeling inside me. I swear people say bad things about me behind my back, and I am convinced that everyone just acts like they're a friend of mine, but in reality, they don't like me. I want out, I do not want to be here anymore, i can't stand coming home and being yelled at the second I get in the door for whatever pathetic reason. Some one just kill me, that way I dont have the self shame from commiting suicide.