Alright guys, i really need to vent. Someone give me advice?/:
So there's this kid named Marshall. He's from England, and he moved
here to America when he was 9. He's a sophomore and i'm a freshman.
I've had a crush on him since 5th grade, and he never really noticed me
until this year. Yeah, that might sound good so far but it gets worse.
His sister, Dakota, was my "bestfriend". She's a senior that i met this year, and
after i told her i like loved her brother, she started wanting
to hangout more. My other friends said something wasn't
right, that i shouldn't trust her. But of course i didn't listen. When i went to her
house for the first time, hanging out with her, she really embarassed
me infront of Marshall. I didn't think anything of it then, but then it
happened again, and again, and again. Everytime i went over her house
it was embarassing. I liked it though, because Marshall laughed,
he noticed me. He thought i was hilarious. The other day i went to their
house to hangout with Dakota, but she had something else planned.
She had a list of everything i had ever said about Marshall.
She read it to him right infront of me
How cute and adorable he was, how i was desperatley in love
with him. I started crying, and Marshall went to his room.
Dakota was laughing because she thought it was hilarious.
Yesterday i got a text from her saying that we couldnt talk anymore
because she was too much older then me. I asked her, "Why does it matter?"
and she didnt answer back. She blocked me on facebook,
deleted my number, and ignored me in the hallways.
My friends were right. She pretended to be my bestfriend
just to embarasse me infront of Marshall. Now Marshall
looks at me like im a freak, like i have 3 heads or something.
Marshall was my first REAL love, i didnt have a chance anyway,
because hes so god damn perfect and im not, but i dont
want to be looked at like a weirdo. I just wanted to be his
friend, maybe. But now theres no chance, ever. Even for friendship.
If you read this, please comment and tell me what i should do. I'm desperate
for some answers. Thank you;