honestly.
in all honesty.
i love it.
cutting.
when i feel numb it takes my pain & washes it away.
i can feel again.
but, its an addiction.
i have scars on my arms, & a few on my thighs.
TODAY I AM 13 DAYS CUT FREE.
i feel good.
but its always in the back of my mind.
what do i do instead of cutting.?
i draw butterflies all on my arm.
now, i look down & i think by cutting im also killing & hurting all the people i love.
i imagine my boyfriend as one of the butterflies & know i am hurting him.
i think this because he doesnt want to see me like this.
he doesnt want me to cut. 
so, i havent in a while. 
im not promising you i wont again.
i just promise that im trying....<3