ok...
at this point i really do remember everything i said yeah its what i thought... but ive said these things before. but when i said them i was saying it as a supportive friend. not to hurt her and she got it. no i wasnt mad at first when she told me i was flirting but then i thought how could you tell me this after all you did behind his back. all those thoughts piled up and came out, i didnt mean to hurt her. yeah if i said the same things but in a different way nothing would of happend. both of us said wrong things. i feel like im not myself anymore.. that im different. like im missing my other half. yeah i miss my bestfriend.. how couldnt i. this weekend will be hard. but i have to get through it. right now one of us needs to have the guts to say something to the other but neither of us will... i feel as if it will never get better. and i will never have my other half. that nobody will be like she was. NOBODY. i am sorry but i dont think she is... i really miss her though and nothing has been the same. i really need you...! things at home arent good. now i feel like shes trying to break up me and my boyfriend. i wonder if thats how i feel. sooo i am sorry and i really do wish everything was how it use to be.. how it was last week... </3