Don't give up on
love, ever. it's worth fighting for.
earlier tonight my boyfriend broke up with me, he said he
couldn't take it anymore. He said he was tired of
arguing all the time, that he didn't want to hurt me
anymore. he loves me and wants to be with me, he's
happy with me. but he didnt wanna cause me anymore pain. i
always complained, about everything. it was always you
don't care enough, you don't love me, or me getting
mad about every little thing. i always thought our problems
were his fault. but it turns out, it was all my fault.
i'm insecure, i over react ALOT. i complain constantly.
he said no matter what he does for me, it's never
enough.
and he's right, that's exactly how i treated him. i
never meant any of it though. he did make me happy, he was
enough. i know he loves me, i know he cares. he said it
felt like the right thing to do, but then again it
didn't. he didn't want me to be sad, and he
didn't wanna lose me. he didn't want me to hate
him. i could never hate him. he wanted me to still be his
friend. but i know some of you out there has to know what
it's like to be with someone for seven months and then
just lose them, there's no being just friends after
that. atleast not for me. and if it wasn't for my older
brother, i wouldn't of made it through that. but after
three or four hours of crying on the phone with my
boyfriend. we finally both understood what eachother had to
say, and agreed that what we have is worth putting down our
pride for and trying to fix it. i'm not going to lie. i
didn't really see our problems, cause i was causing
them by saying things i didn't mean. it was all my
fault. and i told him i'd change and do what it took to
make him happy again and make things work. and i'm
going to do exactly that. i love him with all my heart and
at that point all i could think is i can't go on,
it's not supposed to end like this. i couldn't
imagine the rest of my life without him in it. to all
the girls (or guys?) that read this. thanks. maybe it
inspired some of you, maybe it didn't. just thought
sharing my story would maybe help some of you in some way.
always remember, it's worth fighting for, putting your
pride down for. and before you jump to conclusions, try
talking to the person about it first. i guess the main
message of posting this was,
Don't give up on love.
it's hard to find,
y'know♥
